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Where do I begin.....I am an addict! I have been clean for 59 days----WOW! It seems so much longer then that! My drug use began in high school (class of 85)----used mainly pill, some marijuana, crack a time or two, oh and opiates (I did mix these drugs with alchol)-----sigh! I ended up on Xanax and hydrocodone for about the past 3 years or so, I have had some memory loss, fortunately for me it is coming back piece by piece. There were serveral things that caused me to seek help, my fiance', my son and my youngest niece. All 3 of them played a large factor; they will probably never realize that they actually saved my life!

Psalm 34:5
“Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.” (NIV)

Monday, August 29, 2011


Well I have been thinking....I really don't think I like pain very much! I can feel everything and it is tough-----no wander I didn't want to! I am sure it gets easier to deal with...NO actually I know it will get easier but I guess the process will take a while but I WILL get there. I have had to go to the ER a couple of times and each time it was something that caused a great deal of pain.....the first time they only gave me a shot for pain and antibiotics well ironically I was allergic to the antibiotic and the pain was getting worse so they changed my antibiotic and gave me vicodin. Vicodin is not suppose to be addictive and it seemed to work like Tylenol to me but they are right its really nothing that I felt I could get dependent on :) I still laugh at the allergic reaction.....things that I have abused for so long didn't kill me (how I got passed that I don't know so PLEASE do NOT try this at home) and then something that is suppose to make me better could have killed me! Go figure! Just my luck! Ya know the bad thing is with my memory loss I cannot for the life of me remember what it was that I had the reaction to so I hope John or mom remember or next time I am in the ER I will ask them hopefully they put it in their records! (: