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Where do I begin.....I am an addict! I have been clean for 59 days----WOW! It seems so much longer then that! My drug use began in high school (class of 85)----used mainly pill, some marijuana, crack a time or two, oh and opiates (I did mix these drugs with alchol)-----sigh! I ended up on Xanax and hydrocodone for about the past 3 years or so, I have had some memory loss, fortunately for me it is coming back piece by piece. There were serveral things that caused me to seek help, my fiance', my son and my youngest niece. All 3 of them played a large factor; they will probably never realize that they actually saved my life!

Psalm 34:5
“Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.” (NIV)

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Day 67

I do not know what it is about today but I feel just as bad today as I did on about day 3 or 4!  When my mom got here she thought I had 2 black eyes!  Nope just dark circles under my eyes.....very jittery,  very painful day....overall I just feel sick!   Body aches!  Counselor did tell me that at one point I may go through a rebound detox from the xanax......maybe that is what it is but I sure hope it passes soon!   VERY high anxiety day!  Just makes you feel you need something to take the edge off and that scares me too!  I know if I just had a couple of pills it would all go away.........