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Where do I begin.....I am an addict! I have been clean for 59 days----WOW! It seems so much longer then that! My drug use began in high school (class of 85)----used mainly pill, some marijuana, crack a time or two, oh and opiates (I did mix these drugs with alchol)-----sigh! I ended up on Xanax and hydrocodone for about the past 3 years or so, I have had some memory loss, fortunately for me it is coming back piece by piece. There were serveral things that caused me to seek help, my fiance', my son and my youngest niece. All 3 of them played a large factor; they will probably never realize that they actually saved my life!

Psalm 34:5
“Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.” (NIV)

Saturday, August 13, 2011


Well as you may remember previously, when my addiction went in to a tail spin was when my niece Brinley had to have her first surgery.  Well yesterday, my sister and brother-in-law had to rush her back down to Cook's Childrens Hospital in Fort Worth, Tx.  Her O2 level dropped down to 50 and her heart rate went up to 200 bpm----SCARY!  I have coped fairly well without any "drugs" but it has been one of those minute by minute days!  I feel a little flighty here and there---like I just need to get away!  Tried to keep myself busy for the last couple of days; rode with John yesterday while he was looking for a building for his shop, he came over at 5 am this morning and then took us to the Boys Club for Sean's weight in for football (116) and then he drove around and took MORE pics of the things that USE to be in town---well of course I mean the locations of things that use to be.  After we got back here-----I SLEPT!  Then fixed them dinner about 9 pm (:   Doctors say that ity bitty (Brinley) is doing well and they believe she was dehydrated---I can certainly see that it has been sooo hot here lately!  They have been giving her fluids and o2 ----monitoring her!  Great hospital----wish they were located here!  (Sean was there for his first 2 weeks---Ronald McDonald House is amazing as well.)