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Where do I begin.....I am an addict! I have been clean for 59 days----WOW! It seems so much longer then that! My drug use began in high school (class of 85)----used mainly pill, some marijuana, crack a time or two, oh and opiates (I did mix these drugs with alchol)-----sigh! I ended up on Xanax and hydrocodone for about the past 3 years or so, I have had some memory loss, fortunately for me it is coming back piece by piece. There were serveral things that caused me to seek help, my fiance', my son and my youngest niece. All 3 of them played a large factor; they will probably never realize that they actually saved my life!

Psalm 34:5
“Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.” (NIV)

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Day 82

Well this has been a high stress day for our family. My niece who I discuss early on in my blog had her 2nd heart surgery yesterday. Well today they had to take a crash cart into her room! They are not sure what happened but now they have drug induced paralyzed her. Lot of praying----We know God has big plans for her! She is the sweetest baby. She will be 3 months tomorrow and you can look at her and know that she is fully aware of everything. She laughs, smiles and just seems so calm----could take a few pointers from her :) Tonite we were at a car lot here in town and one of the guys came up and introduced himself and then lastly he shook Sean's hand and said boy you are the most special one of all and Sean said No I am not baby Brinley my cousin is :) Well of course all of the kiddos are special but he is right she is! She has changed a lot how some of us think about certain things; she wakes someone up (: As far as my dealing with an issue that would have sent me over the edge for lack of a better phrase----chest pain has been my reaction and other then some tylenol and a nitro have not had cravings for anything else.....worried about ity bitty but deep in my heart I know God is watching over her and has big plans for her----she has already made a big difference in all of our lives!