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Where do I begin.....I am an addict! I have been clean for 59 days----WOW! It seems so much longer then that! My drug use began in high school (class of 85)----used mainly pill, some marijuana, crack a time or two, oh and opiates (I did mix these drugs with alchol)-----sigh! I ended up on Xanax and hydrocodone for about the past 3 years or so, I have had some memory loss, fortunately for me it is coming back piece by piece. There were serveral things that caused me to seek help, my fiance', my son and my youngest niece. All 3 of them played a large factor; they will probably never realize that they actually saved my life!

Psalm 34:5
“Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.” (NIV)

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Day 79

Well we drove down to Cook's Children's Hospital yesterday afternoon.  My niece Brinley is back in the hospital due to her sats dropping very low.  Yesterday morning she had a cardiac cath and now the doctors are keeping her sedated to keeps sats up so she was sleeping the entire time we were there but I did get to kiss her and it was a relief for my mom and I to see her with our own eyes.  From my sisters update she is still sedated and next thing is going to be surgery # 2.  After this surgery she will finally get to go out and about like other baby's her age!  My sis is very excited about that!  yay!  I finally to her the quilt I made her....not quite finished with hand quilting the teddy bears on the quilt but I figured I want her to have it before she out grows it.....after winter goes by I will take it back and finish the quilting for her :)  or wait until she is old enough and teach her how!

As far as any issues that I have had lately would be muscle pain!  ugh!  Seems like it is not going to go away and still memory issues which all sucks.  I am really worried that my memory is not going to come back  on certain things----but I guess I wont know! hmmmm? 

Will be driving back down to Cook's on Tuesday after school gets out for surgery 2 to see Brinley and to be there for my sister; it seemed to help her when we were there.  I know when Sean was there for his 1st 2 weeks it was harder when I was there alone because with my imagination I think about everything possible!